I just wanted to be hugged. I thought about reasons and causes, and thought about all kinds of things, trying to come up with a reason or cause. The only feeling I arrived at was that I just wanted to be hugged and be tender. It was that s…

生きていくのは、眠りと食事と仕事と余暇で構築されているように思う。疲れたな、、

overlap (each other)Sense of imbalanceIrresistibleI want to fall like thisIt's a terrible temptation Once you start preparingWill there be a next stage? A dangerous mentality is coming to an endThis world I enjoyedhas to end now.

I am only afraid of what the outcome will be, but it can't be helped. That's life. My fear grows as I wait for the doctor's appointment. I feel as if I am standing in a completely different world line from yesterday. Last night, when I was…