There was fear.I have to confront unspeakable fear. I have always run away. I knew I couldn't keep running. It was insane to have to face it without a single shield to protect myself. In a corner of my mind, I knew I might die. My common s…

Have you lost your patience?Actually, it's over, but my head and heart are out of whack and I can't cope. My body is heavy. I feel tired, but I'm going to have to move in a little while anyway. Chi doesn't want to do anything. I have so ma…

Yeah, it's hard to keep yourself together.I want to disappear, that's all I think aboutI don't want to anymore, I don't want to anymore, I don't want to anymoreI'm in pain, no matter what I do or don't do, it's all the sameI have to do som…

Cover with a blanket. From the head. I close my eyes on the couch. My body is tense all the time and forgets to relax. I lie down and close my eyes in the dark. My toes are cold and sore. Running away from the fight was my way of fighting.…

ほどほどでいい季節柄だけでない原因で加速する気持ちに歯止めをかけようと努力しためんどうになりそうな事をしなかった自分を労いつつ、手を打たなければと思う思いながら、ぜんぶめちゃくちゃになってしまえばいいのかもしれない気持ちが常にどこかに存在…

Start a blog, I was told. With pictures or illustrations and a few sentences. He asked me if I wanted to read it. I laughed and said yes. If that's what you want to read, find something like that and read it.Records are important. Over tim…