There was fear.I have to confront unspeakable fear. I have always run away. I knew I couldn't keep running. It was insane to have to face it without a single shield to protect myself. In a corner of my mind, I knew I might die. My common s…

Have you lost your patience?Actually, it's over, but my head and heart are out of whack and I can't cope. My body is heavy. I feel tired, but I'm going to have to move in a little while anyway. Chi doesn't want to do anything. I have so ma…